A few nights ago, I had a breakdown. Many things contributed to my moment of panic, but mostly one huge decision I needed to make. I have been working an entire year towards taking a big step in my life and after this time of contemplation, its time I say yes or no. Many obstacles could get in the way of me moving forward, or create more waiting time. There are many logical reasons why now is the worst time to take this leap. However, I feel ready to execute and am scared if I do not move now, I may never. Still, I could not shake the guilt of reasons why not to move forward, and this is what suddenly brought me down.
The next morning on my way to the gym, I listened to this podcast episode about breakdowns and instantly broke down in tears. It reminded me of a quote a friend shared with me when I planned to quit my highly structured corporate job. Spoken by Marissa Mayer, CEO of Yahoo! in regards to pushing through uncertainty; “I always did something I was a little not ready to do. I think that’s how you grow. When there’s that moment of ‘Wow, I’m not really sure I can do this,’ and you push through those moments, that’s when you have a breakthrough. Sometimes that’s a sign that something really good is about to happen. You’re about to grow and learn a lot about yourself”.
I had experienced a breakthrough when I quit my last job. Recognizing the amazing things that came from pushing through my insecurities made me aware this can and will happen again. Listening to that podcast and remembering those words instantly calmed my nerves. It gave me the confirmation I needed to move on, take risks, and breakthrough.